I am starting a blog, but unlike a lot of other blogs out there, this isn’t about letting people know everything about me.
This is about me trying to figure out what I want to do with my life. I think having a place that I can put ideas out there and possibly get some feedback might help. I honestly don’t know what I want out of life any more and I’m ready to figure it out again. If that means I have to open the Book of Josh up to the internet for a while to see if someone else out there can interpret things a bit differently then I guess that is what I am going to do.
I’m a “recent” college graduate. I’ve had my BS degree in Natural Science for about 10 months now and have done almost nothing with it. I had one interview for a job that required a degree, then I worked at Wal-mart for 6 months. And now I have been unemployed for 4 months.
Originally I planned to be a high school science teacher. Then I realized when I was almost there that I didn’t want that. So I decided to try to work in a science museum. Those jobs are 95% volunteer positions. So I settled on laboratory work. Hey, I have the degree; why not use it? No luck there. Then Wal-mart came along and sucked my soul out! My experiences during those six months left me unsure of everything. I don’t know what to do next. Who am I?! What do I like?! Who are Really my friends?! What do I do?! What can I make?! WHAT NOW?!?
“[People aren’t] meant to know what they want. They are meant to think they do… then attain it… then realize it wasn’t what they wanted after all.”
Sometimes he is surprisingly insightful, if not overly pessimistic. I’m still not sure if I agree with this, but I know it does happen quite often to a lot of people.
So now I am going to try really hard to not fill this blog with too much “feely” stuff. I don’t want to be depressing, but honest and thoughtful about my past/present/future. I’m sure I’m not the first person to feel this way, so maybe my journey can help you, maybe your journey can help me. We will see with time.
(And because this is how I used to end my blogs on Xanga) Bye!